Emily
16111994
ex-Compassvalite
SCGS-1SY, 2SY, 3SY
Trombonist
<3s FA5 and TIDE:D

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1SY 2SY FA5 S&L TIDE Trombones Celestine Cheryl Dorcas Elizabeth Fann Ivan Janine Leanne Leewei Lyeann Melissa Valerie Wenyuan
"And speaking of Italy and sports cars that I stole there, you still owe me a yellow porsche" -Alice Cullen.

Have you ever felt so betrayed by your own friends that you feel like hitting something--real hard?

I'm combating with my resoluteness. No doubt. Restraint bound to crack sometimes and don't blame me if I flare up. My mind was never freed of jealousy, and that instinct to always always achieve the best and only the best, time and again..I only watched enviously as you flaunt ur success. But it's over now. We don't exactly meet anymore. The mind's a distance away, and we're no longer connected by friendship, do we still? Your oblique hints mean much to me. All the cliched asinine things that we used to do, do you still remember?

I had this friend, perhaps, still mine, who was the BEST. She went home with me, talked to me and after PSLE, it was a heartbreak. No longer in the same school and from what I've heard, moved on with life and got on pretty well with new friends. Best ones even. Where've our past gone to? She was genuine, not like the spurious ones I've got, and it was great. She was like, my role model. She has no jealousy in her at all, and whatever I say, or may even boast of, she takes them in her stride and was the same old humble girl. I learnt to be like her. Presently though..totally different story. What could I not do to go to THAT school. This friendship is anomalous, the feel totally different.

Perhaps, the problem lies with that we're teens?

That young girls, innocent primary schoolers are less prone to--mood swings..

If only everyone could stay at the pretty age of 12-

where squabbles, pettiness, jealousy and whatnot 100 other problems reared their ugly heads.

Dammit.

They're forcing me to do what I DO NOT want to do, against my will, but they force me. FORCE. Right..

I want to sleep, let my disappointments evaporate. Condense on someone else, dun come and find me again.

XOXO,
EMxD
Oh dear me, I am the real essence of style.